My mom and I
It will be Mother’s Day tomorrow and at first I wasn’t going to write a post about it but changed my mind. I was reading some of my favorite blogs and watching some tv shows and everyone was sending out special I love you’s and so many wonderful things about their moms.
If you have been a loyal reader to my blog, you know I rarely talk about my family back home. I grew up in rather dysfunctional and depressing childhood. As young as I can remember it was not great. I saw some horrible things that my mom went through that I don’t really care to mention. I almost lost my mom at 2yrs old and could have been in a foster care. Precious who?
Now that I’m older, I understand now why she was so bitter and angry. When I was young, I would try to love on my mom and she would turn me away. She never really told me or my sister she loved us. She was very angry and she would send us to relatives as much as she could. I didn’t realize she was going through so much. I just thought she didn’t love us. She did tell my sister and I all the time that she wanted boys because they were much easier to raise.
So over the years my mother and I have always had a distant relationship. After I turned 18, I never returned home or wanted to be around her because I felt like she didn’t care or wanted to be around me anyway. I was a very good kid, went to school and college and tried to be a good person and daughter.Time and time again I was rejected or talked down to. I never could make her happy. She grew up around alot of negativity in her life, so she just never had anything nice to say about things that I was doing, I guess just out of habit.
When my husband and I decided to move south is when I saw her react. She didn’t like the fact that I was moving away but I was confused because the whole time I was in Cleveland she never really came around or did anything with my kids.I guess knowing I was in reach was good enough for her lol. Well now I call her once in awhile and say hello and let the kids talk to her but there really isn’t anything there. I will forever honor and respect her but I feel bad that we don’t have a relationship like I see other moms and daughters have. I wish her well, I love you Mom and hope you have a wonderful mother’s day! Have fun you guys and love your moms,it’s not too late for some!
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